This isn’t so much about weight loss and fitness, but seeing as the blog focuses on being happy, I think it is important to write about being happy.
I wonder how many of us are where we thought we would be a few years ago or if we are even where we want to be. Where I am now and what I am doing now is definitely not what I thought I would be doing a few years ago. I kind of just fell into it and whilst I am really happy with the way things are going, I can’t help but look back and wish I had started to figure things out a lot sooner.
It is easy to look back and think that I have wasted part of my life. I have a degree that it looks like I won’t use, as I realised only a year ago what I wanted to do in life – be a writer and a criminology degree isn’t going to help me with that unless I plan to write about crime. Which I don’t. It is easy to compare myself to people who are much younger and have it all figured out and are getting there or are already there. As I quickly approach 30 (wow, seeing the written down is weird), it gets me down sometimes that I am only just figuring it out. Don’t get me wrong, 30 is not old at all, but for someone who still feels (and looks apparently, as I always get ID’d) 16, I wonder where the last 10-15 years have gone and what the hell I was doing the whole time.
I could sit here and tell myself that it is too late to start following my recently found dreams and I should just accept that I have to get a career that I hate and wake up every morning dreading going to work. But why should I? Why should any of us? Is it ever too late to start following a dream?
Maybe I am having a quarter life crisis. Actually, quarter life? Am I living until I am 120? An early mid-life crisis I guess. A bit of an identity crisis perhaps. Who am I? Who do I want to be? What will I become? None of those questions are ones that I can answer right now and maybe I never will be able to. I am caught in the middle of knowing that I need to make things happen myself and also knowing that sometimes you just have to let things happen and they can’t be forced.
A song by Motion City Soundtrack says “It’s not a matter of time, it’s a matter of timing. Do you ever wonder how you got to here?” It’s so true. For anything in life it is mostly about being in the right place in the right time.
I just don’t want life to pass me by even more than I feel like it already has done. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t feel negative about my whole past – I have done some amazing things. Despite feeling my degree is useless, the university experience wasn’t. I had an amazing time, met some of my closest friends and learned a lot about myself and other people. I am also married to the only person I can ever imagine being with, someone who supports whatever I want to do and someone who just “gets me”. I realise how lucky I am in those respects as not everyone can say that. But without coming across as ungrateful, that isn’t enough. I want more. I want to wake up every morning and know that I am doing something I love. That is slowly happening. I guess I can actually call myself a writer now and recently I have been given some amazing opportunities that would never have happened without this blog and the Facebook page, but I know I can be doing so much more too.
Another bad thing about all of this is that I feel like I am thinking about the future too much and missing out on living in the now. Like I said before, sometimes you just have to let things happen. This isn’t going to turn into a discussion about fate and if things are already planned out for us (do things happen by chance or by choice?), but things do have a way of naturally working themselves out sometimes and obsessing over the future too much can rob you of experiencing any joy in the present. So that is what I am going to put my energy into – living in the now. I will work on doing what I can to get me where I want to be, but I will also let things flow naturally and remind myself that it is never too late to follow your dreams. Whether you are 30 or 90, if there is something you want to do – go for it! As the saying goes, you will only regret the things you don’t do, not the ones you do.
I will leave you with this quote, as I am off to go out and get working on my dreams, because it really is never too late. There are even more exciting things coming for Hungry Healthy Happy over the next year and I can’t wait to share them with you all.
“Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit home and think about it. Go out and get busy.” -Dale Carnegie
Have any of you started following your dreams later in life?
Anyone make a huge career change?