There is a wall….and I have definitely hit it. I just don’t feel like I can run anymore. Today, I really felt like giving up. But, giving up is NOT an option. However, taking it slow and repeating a week is.
After finding the last run of week 2 the easiest run, I was hoping it would be the same for week 3, but it was the hardest run, ever! Even the first 90 second run dragged and then the 3 minutes…..ergh….it was awful. I don’t even know what was so difficult about it.
In the beginning, the problems I was having were with my heart, and my breathing. Although that has not drastically improved, I can feel a slight improvement, and I am catching my breath back by the end of the cool down, in time for the next walk. What I did have trouble with this run, was my legs. Not shine splints or anything, they just felt like jelly. I felt like I was really pushing myself to run and I wasn’t going anywhere. I mean, I was, but it felt more like a bouncy walk. I think the problem is that I am not giving myself a day in between the runs to have a rest. I know I should, and I know they are beneficial as they give your muscles time to repair, but I can’t go a day without working out. It is not just a physical thing for me, exercise is the best thing for mental health, and it keeps me calm, so I need to do it.
Dave really had to push me through the last 3 minute run and I have never been so glad for it to be over.
I knew that by the end of week 3 that I wouldn’t find it easy, but I thought I would have felt a little improvement, enough to feel confident enough to move on to week 4. But I don’t.
I could attempt week 4, and if it doesn’t go well, then I can just go back to week 3, but for me, that isn’t a great option. I already know there is no way I can complete the first run of week 4 yet. Therefore, if I attempt it, and have to give up, then I have failed. Failing would make me feel like crap. A better option is to re-do the whole of week 3, build up my stamina, and start week 4 after, knowing that I will be able to handle week 4. Repeating is a better option to quitting in my opinion. I know the programme does not schedule repeat weeks, but it is a generic programme, it is not going to suit everyone. I have to do what is going to be best for me.
So, I shall be repeating week 3, and I will start my running blog posts again the week after next, when I am starting week 4.